At a time when all her goals seemed possible, Esther Antoine almost lost her mind and then her life. The unexpected death of her young son in 2008 left the singer, songwriter, author and her family stunned when it was discovered that the five-month-old boy died in his crib due to a design flaw. . It was a discovery that caused some 2,000 cribs to be removed from stores.
As he endured the pain, the tragedy struck again, not once but twice, as St. Lucian, who resides in New York, developed unbearable headaches, which doctors diagnosed as a result of the formation of two cerebral aneurysms.
“No pain compares. Losing a child is hard; I prayed and I’m still praying for closure. I think I’m strong and doing everything I need, including what I like, has helped me process the pain,” she said. . The Espiladora.
Known for her stage name, Esther Sings has a deep connection to music through her father Gregory Smith, who was also a singer and would have performed throughout the Caribbean. And, being married to a Jamaican woman, she couldn’t resist the very serious sound of reggae music, she said. It’s a sound that helped her stay rooted and strong – from Marcia Griffiths’ songs to Sizzla’s – in her claims that the pain would one day go away once it held on like a rock.
“Very good things happen in reggae; I saw where I could write my story and also put it into a song to let my fans know that there is always a good look beyond the horizon. I’ve noticed that with all their obstacles, these reggae artists never gave up on music, recording and acting and I really love everything they create. I always feel so broken, but especially singing her karaoke songs helps and motivates me, ”said Esther Sings.
Writing became his source of therapy, spreading his story through two publications of attached books, entitled You left me broken i Surviving a brain aneurysm and how it changed my life. Penning’s songs also encouraged her and she produced four songs: Cease fire, Do the best I can, I never love youand his latest single, I want to live.
“When I look at my children, although sad in a way, I am happy. He could have been here and he would be 13 years old and I am still a mother of three more children and I have to be strong for them. They always support me through hugs and kisses, “he said.” Being a survivor of two aneurysms cut into my brain shows a certain purpose and strength. There are a lot of people who are sick in bed, mothers who are being mistreated and murdered by their spouse, wars that happen physically and spiritually, but I’m here with the support and armed with reggae songs to inspire, ”he said.
Esther Sings continues to promote her music and book publications in the United Kingdom, USA, and Jamaica. He said the catchy letter of I want to live which is produced by John Hewitt under African Voice Productions, pushes people to live up to their purpose, he said.
“People like it because they’re looking for music that feels good and one that tells a real, telling story. Most of my music is based on love and pain, and this song is especially dear to me. “Because I give more of myself. It is also an affirmation action for people who are struggling with problems that put them in a dark space to move on and live,” he said.
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